Mana Mana

Every morning in Lifespan our teacher asks us on this app we use how we're feeling. There's a chart with pictures of Muppets and everything. There's one I always pick, and it's the Mana Mana one. You know, from the old Muppet Show? It kind of describes the blegh feeling I feel sometimes. And I definitely feel Mana Mana right now.

I wish I had an easier time making friends. I know I'm an acquired taste because I'm weird and nerdy but I can usually get along with other nerdy people. And so far no one has presented themselves as nerdy in my class. Or at least, nerdy with a desire to meet other nerds. It's an adjustment. I'm trying to be normal but I'm not normal. I'd rather talk about Harry Potter than boys and Instagram pictures any day. I'm sure I'll eventually find someone that I talk to every day and eat lunch with, but until then I feel like I'm back in high school. I need to make friends. I'm with these people for another two years. There's bound to be someone right?

Anyways, this thought plagued me so much that at one point I was unable to move for a while. But I guess I should stop worrying and be myself.

But what is myself is someone they don't like?

I'm sure I'll figure it out.

I don't really have much to report today. Maybe tomorrow.